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+It is now 17:12 Pacific Time.  I would have rather saved this log first-to-last, but it
+is in reverse order, last-to-first.  I am harshly inhibited from commenting on why I said
+different things, and don't remember what I was going to say next -- oh and I am making a
+lot of typing errors and fervently correcting them.
+
+It is now 17:08 Pacific Time and I am finally saving this.  I was trying to save it this whole
+time.  During the process I for some reason typed the following things at the terminal prompt:
+
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 src]$ # looking for work                                                        
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 src]$ cd for-slow-organization-job-private/                                     
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ ls                                          
+git-maintenance  MAIN.txt                                                                         
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ vi UNExPEC^C
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ mkdir dangerous
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ cd dangerous/
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l                                                               total 0                                          
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ vi UNEXPECTED-BEHAVIOR-INFORMATION.txt^C                           
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mkdir logs-containing-metatrauma-influence                     
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ cd logs-containing-metatrauma-influence/  
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ ls -l                     
+total 0                                                                                           
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # karl is quarantined and anybody who dis
+plays metatrauma.                                                                                 [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # karl's father has metatrauma?
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # we will need to distinguish between the
+ two forms.  civilization stages are metatrauma.                                                  [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ vi 2020-01-08.txt       
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ cd ..  
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mv logs-containing-metatrauma-influence nonconsensual-typing  [3/86]
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l
+total 4
+drwxrwxr-x 2 olpc olpc 4096 Jan  8 17:00 nonconsensual-typing
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mv nonconsensual-typing metatrauma-records
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l
+total 4
+drwxrwxr-x 2 olpc olpc 4096 Jan  8 17:00 metatrauma-records
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # usually metatrauma is not this bad, usually it represents your goa
+ls and experiences better
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it's like a twist through your community of interconnected growth
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # karl had a learning pattern around producing suffering in him
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # this means spawning metatrauma as a goal
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it means spawning harmful life as a goal, i suppose
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it means intentionally breaking a community
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # but i didn't finish considering if that was true, confused
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it's analogous to intentionally breaking a community somewhat, sim
+ilar patterns present
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ 
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # this probably happens a lot, somebody is left out of something and
+ then learns better and turns it against the people who never fully respected hem
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # like the mass murders in schools
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # we have culturees formed in diverse pain.
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # why-this-metatrauma-spawning-happened,
+[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # is the story of why anybody would find it helpful for nurturing an
+d healing what they have experienced or know about
+
+The below emerged when I tried to preserve the stuff below it.  I could not control the behavior.
+It is presently 16:51 Pacific Time, 2020-01-08.  I deleted the line about people around me not
+knowing their reasons before writing this line, and added it back after.  I undid the change,
+copied it by hand elsewhere, and then redid the changes, and copied it by hand back.  I felt very
+confused, but was working hard to preserve the information in the 'BOX'.  I made errors while
+writing this long top line, and did not include them.
+secret-language-translater says they are receiving many repeated and diverse requests to
+record everything we are doing, preferably permanently.
+	an alien translator reeived misinformation about the secret language. -alien translator
+		alien translators need time to handle pain at this time.
+			we don't have a mediation room, what do we do?
+				i usually risk everyone else getting the issue so that others learn it's this bad -karl  it's importan to form correct conclusions from dangerous information, and this is just a guess and treated as a guess.
+	we'll form the alien-result group.
+		that is so incredibly kind of you.  we might be able to protect you now.
+		i'm thanking you because you made a subtle behavior that helped me in a situation where i cannot tak about what is going on safely, and the behavior was incredibly helpful.
+			karl says that for some reason people around him aren't aware of the reasons they do things, roughly, he doesn't know why, and a voice suggested part of it to him when he was young.  this is not related to anything we re discussing.
+
+okay, we are taking the information to the public storage place, because we are able to move
+and yu are all not moving.
+
+
+PRESERVATION BOX, TIME ORDER LOST, BUT MOSTLY TOP-TO-BOTTOM.  EXPRESSIONS WERE EXTRACTED WITHOUT
+ALLOWING INTERNAL REVIEW TO COMPLETE, BECAUSE THE 'new community member' WAS HALF THE PROCESS.
+AFTER PRESERVING THIS, I REVIEWED IT AND THE CONTENTS DIFFERED FROM MY MEMORY.
+	my memory is split into two equally-valued possibilities, neither of which match
+	the recorded information.  both include information that is not there, regarding
+	additional 'alien secret' material and marking.
+ALIEN SECRET
+we honored one of the members of the other culture who seemed to want to learn their ways,
+and it looked like somebody stole information that could have made them vulnerable in ways
+they didn't understand.  some of our members seemed a little out of sorts afterwards, I think
+for some reason we didn't discuss the pain this visitor held, and how it impacted us.
+	<paired concerns making opposite assumptions> <ALIEN SECRET HELD HERE WITHOUT TRUST>
+		you don't trust the aliens?  they are so different, would it make sense to?
+		well, i am an alien, but they are very different from me too.  maybe we shouldn't
+		trust them too much.
+	<karl solved for not having learned this properly as a child, to show
+	 that trust depends on whether the influence is likely to impact just you, or your whole community.  this includes how much you are hurt and your value.>
+			talking to yourself indicates severe community emergency, unless
+			it holds harmony
+				we are considering whether to encourage the recommended-to-not-trust life to trick people into talking to themselves in ways they already do, with influence
+				doing this has value, because hey were in a community where everybody tricked each oher, and nobody trusted, and this would s
+			how is the habit behaving?
+				as described.
+			let us memorize it, logically, and refrain frm letting it influence our
+			behavior.  can't, it jumps around and stops that.
+				still-needs-privacy,-forever-has-passed
+			we are not a real community so we can risk death
+requesting-alien-secret,but-many-layers-of-discourse
+PRESERVATION BOX, TIME ORDER LOST