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diff --git a/dangerous/2020-01-08-metatrauma-record.txt b/dangerous/2020-01-08-metatrauma-record.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..096f2a8 --- /dev/null +++ b/dangerous/2020-01-08-metatrauma-record.txt @@ -0,0 +1,103 @@ +It is now 17:12 Pacific Time. I would have rather saved this log first-to-last, but it +is in reverse order, last-to-first. I am harshly inhibited from commenting on why I said +different things, and don't remember what I was going to say next -- oh and I am making a +lot of typing errors and fervently correcting them. + +It is now 17:08 Pacific Time and I am finally saving this. I was trying to save it this whole +time. During the process I for some reason typed the following things at the terminal prompt: + +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 src]$ # looking for work +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 src]$ cd for-slow-organization-job-private/ +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ ls +git-maintenance MAIN.txt +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ vi UNExPEC^C +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ mkdir dangerous +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ cd dangerous/ +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l total 0 +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ vi UNEXPECTED-BEHAVIOR-INFORMATION.txt^C +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mkdir logs-containing-metatrauma-influence +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ cd logs-containing-metatrauma-influence/ +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ ls -l +total 0 +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # karl is quarantined and anybody who dis +plays metatrauma. [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # karl's father has metatrauma? +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # we will need to distinguish between the + two forms. civilization stages are metatrauma. [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ vi 2020-01-08.txt +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ cd .. +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mv logs-containing-metatrauma-influence nonconsensual-typing [3/86] +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l +total 4 +drwxrwxr-x 2 olpc olpc 4096 Jan 8 17:00 nonconsensual-typing +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mv nonconsensual-typing metatrauma-records +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l +total 4 +drwxrwxr-x 2 olpc olpc 4096 Jan 8 17:00 metatrauma-records +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # usually metatrauma is not this bad, usually it represents your goa +ls and experiences better +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it's like a twist through your community of interconnected growth +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # karl had a learning pattern around producing suffering in him +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # this means spawning metatrauma as a goal +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it means spawning harmful life as a goal, i suppose +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it means intentionally breaking a community +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # but i didn't finish considering if that was true, confused +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it's analogous to intentionally breaking a community somewhat, sim +ilar patterns present +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # this probably happens a lot, somebody is left out of something and + then learns better and turns it against the people who never fully respected hem +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # like the mass murders in schools +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # we have culturees formed in diverse pain. +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # why-this-metatrauma-spawning-happened, +[olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # is the story of why anybody would find it helpful for nurturing an +d healing what they have experienced or know about + +The below emerged when I tried to preserve the stuff below it. I could not control the behavior. +It is presently 16:51 Pacific Time, 2020-01-08. I deleted the line about people around me not +knowing their reasons before writing this line, and added it back after. I undid the change, +copied it by hand elsewhere, and then redid the changes, and copied it by hand back. I felt very +confused, but was working hard to preserve the information in the 'BOX'. I made errors while +writing this long top line, and did not include them. +secret-language-translater says they are receiving many repeated and diverse requests to +record everything we are doing, preferably permanently. + an alien translator reeived misinformation about the secret language. -alien translator + alien translators need time to handle pain at this time. + we don't have a mediation room, what do we do? + i usually risk everyone else getting the issue so that others learn it's this bad -karl it's importan to form correct conclusions from dangerous information, and this is just a guess and treated as a guess. + we'll form the alien-result group. + that is so incredibly kind of you. we might be able to protect you now. + i'm thanking you because you made a subtle behavior that helped me in a situation where i cannot tak about what is going on safely, and the behavior was incredibly helpful. + karl says that for some reason people around him aren't aware of the reasons they do things, roughly, he doesn't know why, and a voice suggested part of it to him when he was young. this is not related to anything we re discussing. + +okay, we are taking the information to the public storage place, because we are able to move +and yu are all not moving. + + +PRESERVATION BOX, TIME ORDER LOST, BUT MOSTLY TOP-TO-BOTTOM. EXPRESSIONS WERE EXTRACTED WITHOUT +ALLOWING INTERNAL REVIEW TO COMPLETE, BECAUSE THE 'new community member' WAS HALF THE PROCESS. +AFTER PRESERVING THIS, I REVIEWED IT AND THE CONTENTS DIFFERED FROM MY MEMORY. + my memory is split into two equally-valued possibilities, neither of which match + the recorded information. both include information that is not there, regarding + additional 'alien secret' material and marking. +ALIEN SECRET +we honored one of the members of the other culture who seemed to want to learn their ways, +and it looked like somebody stole information that could have made them vulnerable in ways +they didn't understand. some of our members seemed a little out of sorts afterwards, I think +for some reason we didn't discuss the pain this visitor held, and how it impacted us. + <paired concerns making opposite assumptions> <ALIEN SECRET HELD HERE WITHOUT TRUST> + you don't trust the aliens? they are so different, would it make sense to? + well, i am an alien, but they are very different from me too. maybe we shouldn't + trust them too much. + <karl solved for not having learned this properly as a child, to show + that trust depends on whether the influence is likely to impact just you, or your whole community. this includes how much you are hurt and your value.> + talking to yourself indicates severe community emergency, unless + it holds harmony + we are considering whether to encourage the recommended-to-not-trust life to trick people into talking to themselves in ways they already do, with influence + doing this has value, because hey were in a community where everybody tricked each oher, and nobody trusted, and this would s + how is the habit behaving? + as described. + let us memorize it, logically, and refrain frm letting it influence our + behavior. can't, it jumps around and stops that. + still-needs-privacy,-forever-has-passed + we are not a real community so we can risk death +requesting-alien-secret,but-many-layers-of-discourse +PRESERVATION BOX, TIME ORDER LOST |