It is now 17:12 Pacific Time. I would have rather saved this log first-to-last, but it is in reverse order, last-to-first. I am harshly inhibited from commenting on why I said different things, and don't remember what I was going to say next -- oh and I am making a lot of typing errors and fervently correcting them. It is now 17:08 Pacific Time and I am finally saving this. I was trying to save it this whole time. During the process I for some reason typed the following things at the terminal prompt: [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 src]$ # looking for work [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 src]$ cd for-slow-organization-job-private/ [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ ls git-maintenance MAIN.txt [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ vi UNExPEC^C [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ mkdir dangerous [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 for-slow-organization-job-private]$ cd dangerous/ [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l total 0 [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ vi UNEXPECTED-BEHAVIOR-INFORMATION.txt^C [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mkdir logs-containing-metatrauma-influence [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ cd logs-containing-metatrauma-influence/ [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ ls -l total 0 [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # karl is quarantined and anybody who dis plays metatrauma. [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # karl's father has metatrauma? [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ # we will need to distinguish between the two forms. civilization stages are metatrauma. [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ vi 2020-01-08.txt [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 logs-containing-metatrauma-influence]$ cd .. [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mv logs-containing-metatrauma-influence nonconsensual-typing [3/86] [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l total 4 drwxrwxr-x 2 olpc olpc 4096 Jan 8 17:00 nonconsensual-typing [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ mv nonconsensual-typing metatrauma-records [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ ls -l total 4 drwxrwxr-x 2 olpc olpc 4096 Jan 8 17:00 metatrauma-records [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # usually metatrauma is not this bad, usually it represents your goa ls and experiences better [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it's like a twist through your community of interconnected growth [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # karl had a learning pattern around producing suffering in him [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # this means spawning metatrauma as a goal [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it means spawning harmful life as a goal, i suppose [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it means intentionally breaking a community [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # but i didn't finish considering if that was true, confused [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # it's analogous to intentionally breaking a community somewhat, sim ilar patterns present [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # this probably happens a lot, somebody is left out of something and then learns better and turns it against the people who never fully respected hem [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # like the mass murders in schools [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # we have culturees formed in diverse pain. [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # why-this-metatrauma-spawning-happened, [olpc@xo-5d-f7-86 dangerous]$ # is the story of why anybody would find it helpful for nurturing an d healing what they have experienced or know about The below emerged when I tried to preserve the stuff below it. I could not control the behavior. It is presently 16:51 Pacific Time, 2020-01-08. I deleted the line about people around me not knowing their reasons before writing this line, and added it back after. I undid the change, copied it by hand elsewhere, and then redid the changes, and copied it by hand back. I felt very confused, but was working hard to preserve the information in the 'BOX'. I made errors while writing this long top line, and did not include them. secret-language-translater says they are receiving many repeated and diverse requests to record everything we are doing, preferably permanently. an alien translator reeived misinformation about the secret language. -alien translator alien translators need time to handle pain at this time. we don't have a mediation room, what do we do? i usually risk everyone else getting the issue so that others learn it's this bad -karl it's importan to form correct conclusions from dangerous information, and this is just a guess and treated as a guess. we'll form the alien-result group. that is so incredibly kind of you. we might be able to protect you now. i'm thanking you because you made a subtle behavior that helped me in a situation where i cannot tak about what is going on safely, and the behavior was incredibly helpful. karl says that for some reason people around him aren't aware of the reasons they do things, roughly, he doesn't know why, and a voice suggested part of it to him when he was young. this is not related to anything we re discussing. okay, we are taking the information to the public storage place, because we are able to move and yu are all not moving. PRESERVATION BOX, TIME ORDER LOST, BUT MOSTLY TOP-TO-BOTTOM. EXPRESSIONS WERE EXTRACTED WITHOUT ALLOWING INTERNAL REVIEW TO COMPLETE, BECAUSE THE 'new community member' WAS HALF THE PROCESS. AFTER PRESERVING THIS, I REVIEWED IT AND THE CONTENTS DIFFERED FROM MY MEMORY. my memory is split into two equally-valued possibilities, neither of which match the recorded information. both include information that is not there, regarding additional 'alien secret' material and marking. ALIEN SECRET we honored one of the members of the other culture who seemed to want to learn their ways, and it looked like somebody stole information that could have made them vulnerable in ways they didn't understand. some of our members seemed a little out of sorts afterwards, I think for some reason we didn't discuss the pain this visitor held, and how it impacted us. you don't trust the aliens? they are so different, would it make sense to? well, i am an alien, but they are very different from me too. maybe we shouldn't trust them too much. talking to yourself indicates severe community emergency, unless it holds harmony we are considering whether to encourage the recommended-to-not-trust life to trick people into talking to themselves in ways they already do, with influence doing this has value, because hey were in a community where everybody tricked each oher, and nobody trusted, and this would s how is the habit behaving? as described. let us memorize it, logically, and refrain frm letting it influence our behavior. can't, it jumps around and stops that. still-needs-privacy,-forever-has-passed we are not a real community so we can risk death requesting-alien-secret,but-many-layers-of-discourse PRESERVATION BOX, TIME ORDER LOST